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I know the stories.
We lived on the same street just 3 houses down.  The family had just done some type of renovation, the husband making changes for his wife and one daughter that gave the ladies a second and larger powder room type bathroom and had added on a well done addition of a living room, enlarging the kitchen some.  Looking back I can see the floor plan clearly as we lived in it, and looking back as an adult I can see where the changes had been made.  Growing up, of course, that's just how the house was - and since there was a front door in a bedroom it just made sense.  Since there were two bathrooms and two bedrooms it just made sense.


When I think about home, I think that's what I think about.  We didn't know the street had a cul de sac, we called it a circle, and our house was just beyond the circle. I can remember lots of things - the two porches out front, the color of the house, the hills behind the house.  I can tell you what I recall of the pattern in the square tiles on the floor and where the oven was in relation to the stove.


In the many years since my parents moved I avoided driving down the street.  There wasn't much reason for it - everyone we knew was gone as long as were we.  The neighborhood, like much of our town, has homes torn down and boarded up.  I can have those memories without driving through.


Daddy's illness had me driving through a few times.  It's not out of the way, in fact it's on the way and was probably more trouble trying to pretend I didn't pass it.  The house has changed, a door is gone, a porch is gone, pieces of wood now look rotten and need to be replaced.


When Daddy died I called a cousin of mine and asked of her an odd favor.  "Send a Ziploc bag of dirt from your land."  The same county he grew up in, but the other side of town.  His childhood home now long gone.


I pulled in the old neighborhood, in front of the house where I grew up.  It was empty, for rent.  That made it easier to walk into the yard and spade up a scoop of dirt.


Two small tea bags are in the polished wood box that hold his ashes.  In a way I've buried him as close to him as I could.



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