The Only Thing That Stays the Same - is Grief

Thursday night I had a fabulous breakdown in my therapy sessions. Not to be confused with a breakthrough, a breakdown. Friday night I decided to talk with Eddie about it and had a complete breakdown again. Saturday night at a wedding the handsome groom had put up a framed picture of himw with our guy on the display of loved ones who had passed away. I had a complete breakdown and had to walk far away from the wedding reception. Maybe this six week session of therapy will help me to not do it so much. Maybe it will help me to control my reactions. But goddamn this hurts and it is so unfair, so unkind, so lonely.